Spiritual morning

What a beautiful morning.

I am on the 6th floor and my room faces the Southeast.

I woke just before sunrise, in the time when you just see the silhouette of the mountains, including Mt Hood.

That may not mean much for the non-local family, but for those that are here in town, you now that it can be one of the greatest ways to wake up. I would have taken a picture, but I was still in the fog and a little too sore to dig through my pockets to get my phone. So I drifted back to sleep with the image burned into my mind.

The next thing I new it was seven and the sun was beaming into my face. My favorite nurse (Other than Gigglez) was updating the board with who is on shift. She grabbed a cup of coffee and I headed outside to enjoy the birds on their daily hunt for food.

This was a time that was perfect to ponder all that I had seen over the last day at the hospital. Because of the ward that I am in, there are a lot of tears and looks of concern. I have to feel a bit of guilt, I get the typical greeting of “how’s it going?” to which I respond :””Great! How about you?” They on the other hand more than likely are responding with “I have had better days”.

Yes, I have been hearing people not making it through the night. I feel badly for them and their families, but at the same time…

I am alive, and this little box on my pectoral muscle, will help keep me that way.

I do not mean for this to be “all about Griz”, it is meant to be all about our lives and to live life while you can. Stop and look at yourself, and to those around you. Are you in a position to make their day a little brighter? A simple smile may be all it takes to make the difference in someones outlook on life.

Griz Status

** Updates at the end **


First off I am fine.
I am having another procedure, but this one is to act as an insurance policy.
For those of us who are more of the geek persuasion, I am taking a step towards the Borg.
In the next couple of weeks I will be getting and ICD (Implantable Cardioverter-Defibrillator) implanted. It will likely be a an overnight stay for the monitoring.
After the procedure because after the implantation they will throw my heart into v-tac to cause it to basically quiver in my chest. At that time either the ICD will do its job and restore the rhythm or they will have to grab the paddles and bring me back.

I will likely have the procedure on a Friday (possibly next Friday) and will return to work on Monday. The bar will be a little different. I have to talk to the boss. I will not be permitted to raise my right arm above shoulder level for a week, but I am not permitted to fight for three weeks to a month. I have never had to take or throw a punch in the two years I have been bouncing at the Back Alley. I also normally have several people who would step in if the issue came up. I have seen my backup appear from nowhere. But, I have to leave that up to the boss, obviously the first night I will not be working, I would like the option of working the following Fridays.

I am a prime candidate for this procedure, as I am young (compared to most of his patients I guess) and healthy. With the scarring that is left after a heart attack, it spreads over time and the risk of sudden death increases.

I will have to go in several times for follow-up visits, then start a quarterly check of the device. Every 5-7 years I will have to go in to have the battery changed, and maybe the leads as well.

I guess there are enough of these things out there that the TSA is starting to leave them alone, other than palpating the area to make sure that the device is there. The surgeon has no reason to feel that I could not fly by the time the wedding rolls around (78 days and counting).

As always, I do appreciate how supportive my friends and online family has been.



I spoke with the nurse today.
She says that he is going to use one by Boston Scientific with allows me to dive to 165 feet, instead of the 35 feet that the other manufacturer permits.

I am also now scheduled to go in this Friday morning and will be there overnight.

They expect that I will be sprung from the joint around 1100 am.

Griz’s health situation – updates in the comments

This is not to overshadow or side-rail the post for Lips.

Most know about my situations with health, but I received a letter from my cardiologist yesterday.
He has read my echocardiogram and find no issues with the valves. 🙂
The heart muscle still shows moderate damage, but it has improved over my last echo form last fall.
This part was significant as there was the second heart attack since the last echo.
That tells me that my paying attention and acting on the symptoms negated the damage form the second heart attack.
Bottom line, I am 25 pounds lighter, taking my meds, nudging my dietary habits back into line leaving me in a state of physically improving.

This was only posted because I have such great friends here that care a great deal.

So why is Lips a Pissed Off Pirate?

I will take the wise road, and let her word start this off.

Hi. Yesterday, I was really sad after getting a call from an appointment setter, that radiology had found one or more suspicious spots in my mammogram..
That the soonest available appointment for additional was more than two weeks out.
Today I’m pissed because I’m hit in the face with the disparities between an HMO and a private practice. You are a number in an HMO.
Your are nothing more than cattle.
Their equipment is inferior.
Their policies are inferior.
And this is what happens when you buy your insurance from your provider.
Is this how national health care will be?
Someone needs to put up a topic. So I can name names and vent.

Well, done dear lady.. now let the games begin.

Should religious schools be required to teach health/sexual education from a non-religious perspective?

Does theology trump general health?
Can the nation decide that there be a minimum level of sexual education that must be provided by schools regardless of the school religious beliefs?

Well the bills arrived

I think the last of the initial bills from my hospital visit came in.

They really need to have the bill presented to you while you are in your cardiologist’s office for a followup appointment.

The emergency room visit was 698.00 with 404.68 for me to pay.

The procedure to put the stent into the LAD was 2838.. with 519.10 out of pocket.

that brings us to the CV-ICU stay… 75,570.15  thank God I was working AND have insurance. My out of pocket on that is 3656.91.  So if we do the math, the overall cost was 79106.15 and my tab is (deep breath) 4580.69.

with all of that said… I am alive to share those woes with family and loved ones (yes you guys, you know who you are).